Hard Goodbyes and Homesickness

No matter how long I pretended this day would never come, it still came anyway.

Last Monday, the Betty Jonah Orphanage, Redeemer Baptist Church, Randy Godfrey Elementary and Middle School, and LCMI threw Tim, Shane, and myself a farewell ceremony.

The children sang, the choir sang, the people sang, but I could only pretend to sing. It felt like a part of me was being ripped away and no matter how hard I clenched my hands and held on, there was nothing I could do to stop it.

They spoke many words of thanks to us and to God. They proclaimed story after story of God’s faithfulness and how He had used these three Americans to answer prayers we didn’t even know we were answering. We were told that news of the new roof was spreading over all of Liberia – people could hardly believe a team of only three (and in reality just two) had done this “great thing” for the community in Camp 4. They spoke from 1 Corinthians 1 – “For God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.”

And I sit there and laugh because God has used these “weak” people by worldly standards, these people that society tells us needs our help, money, or service, to completely humble me in every aspect of life. I think of how many rich, strong, wise men and women around the world would be blessed, changed, and taught by them. They used this passage to lift us up when really, they are speaking a testimony of their own lives.

At one point during the ceremony, a man stood up and began to speak. I did not know his name, but I knew his face. As he talked, he told us that he was the head of the security checkpoint we passed through twice a day going to and from the orphanage. He was not asked to come speak at the ceremony, but when he heard of it, he wanted to come and share. What he shared moved me to tears because it proves how big our God is. This man explained that while Time, Shane, and I had hardly said more than a “hello” or “thank-you” to him or his workers, through us, he saw Christ. Through our consistent trips to the orphanage and the constant joy on our faces, they saw the compassion we had to nurture and help the children and serve the Lord.

I am amazed by our God. I am amazed, and humbled, that He can use something as small as a quick hello’s to spread His name among the lost. I am amazed that though we were not evangelizing, the Holy Spirit was witnessing.

When you offer your life an empty vessel, He can do things you never planned or imagined.

Once the speaking was over, Tim, Shane, and I were presented with many gifts – as if they hadn’t given us enough through their joy, love, sincerity, peace, servant hood, and the list goes on. The whole group cheers as they dress each of us in our fine new African clothes.

The last portion of the ceremony is dedicated for words spoken by the three of us. As the “team leader” I was expected to go first, but as I was already choking back tears, Tim and Shane went before me. Tim thanks the people for what they have taught him – the value of relationships. The roof he and Shane built is nice, but it will eventually decay and become old. One day it will start to leak and will need to be replaced again. But the relationships we have built with one another is something than can be carried with us for the rest of our lives. And even if we are not able to meet again, each one of us will always have the imprint of one another on our hearts and lives.

Shane stands and speaks next, but to be honest, I can’t tell you what he said – not because it wasn’t significant, but because all I could think about was the work that the Lord has done in this man’s life over the past year. This time last year, Shane didn’t even know the Lord, and now, 11 months later, the Lord has led him to Africa to spread His love and His name for His glory. I have seen the way Shane has opened up his hands and placed His life completely into the Lord’s hands to be used and God has answered His willingness by doing amazing things through him. I know that all are touched by his story and his continuous love for the people there.

And so finally it’s my turn and to be honest, I’m pretty proud of the amount of people I am able to thank with a clear and confident voice! However, the moment I turn to the girls sitting besides me, it all falls apart. Not a single one of them will look at me. Rather, their heads are buried into their hands, arms, or laps… crying is not something you do in front of others in the Liberian culture. But I am not quite as strong as these girls because I can hardly get an audible word out between my shaking voice. I finish whatever I have to say, stumble back to my seat, and take advantage of the extra long closing prayer to let out a few tears that no one else will see.

The rest of the evening is devoted solely to games. Many of us head out to the volleyball court and play a few matches before we are forced to leave for the night by the sun disappearing behind the mountains. Luckily a few of the kids who weren’t able to come to camp get to spend the night at ABC with us – I’ve never seen two of the girls try so hard to contain smiles that burst across their faces anyway!

In the morning, after our car is packed and we have said goodbye to our ABC friends, the moment that I have been dreading since before we even came to Africa arrives – the final goodbye. At first, I was doing well. A few handshakes for the older kids and hugs and kisses for the younger.

But as I’m sitting on the hill in front of Ma and Pa’s house, Eldigay on my lap, and surrounded my many of the other girls, Ma Betty walked slowly up to me with her head bowed. She’s not smiling like usual. I sat Eldigay down and got up to hug Ma. I started to tell her how much I have loved being at her home and how much I will miss coming everyday. As I let go of our hug Ma starts to wipe tears away from her eyes and says the worst and last thing I wanted to hear Ma say at that moment.

“Next time you come here, I won’t be here anymore.”

It felt like someone tried to shove an elephant down my throat, like I had been hit by a school bus in my stomach, and now there was a big dam about to break from behind my eyes.

I looked at ma straight in the face and told her, “You will be here when I come back. You will always be here.” I pointed to the words on the side of the girls dorm and said, “look at the name on that building. ‘Mother Betty Jonah Orphanage.’ That means that as long as this place stands, you will be here too.”

She gave me a half smile so I hugged her again and told her, “mm-nigh-ee-kah” – I love you.

All the goodbyes after that one were sadder than the beginning ones. I was hit hard by the realization that maybe this really is goodbye. And Maybe I won’t see any one of these people I have grown to love and to cherish again.

Last year when I said goodbye, I think I knew deep down that I would return. But this year, when they ask me if I will come back, my heart sinks each time. It’s not that I don’t want to return. In fact, I want to return more than ever. But if there is one thing I have learned over the past year, and it is something I have learned well, it is that nothing (except the Lord) is concrete. Sometimes God even leads us down one path as a means to get us to another. So even though as of now I can see the Lord opening doors for me to return, until I have Pauline, Comfort, Josephine, Eldigae, Julie, Serena, or Ma Betty in my arms again, I can’t answer them.

Eventually, I know it’s time to tear myself from the kids. I climb into Emmanuel’s car holding back that dam of tears that keeps threatening to break at any moment, releasing flood waters that feel like they won’t stop for hours. I look at the kids – my kids. How much easier it would be to never have to say goodbye. Over the past six weeks, these people have not just been people I have been serving, helping, or discipling – they have been my friends. They have been my brothers and sisters, aunts and uncles, and my mother and father. They are not numbers and statistics for poverty, rape, unemployment, or the orphaned. I know each of them, some better than others. I know their names, their faces, their colors, their stories, their foods. I know how to make all of them laugh and how to make all of them feel special, just like they know how to do the same for me.

How did Paul do it? How did Peter do it? How did they spend time, short or long, with people, pouring their lives and Love into others knowing they were leaving, most likely never to return again? But then I’m reminded not the how, but the why. They did it because they had something in them that has the power to change any person’s life. They had something in them that burned to be told and they couldn’t suppress it. It had to be shared and they desired for all to know and hear about it. And all was done so that they would see them again one day. They took comfort in the fact that the next time they saw many of those they ministered to, there would be no poverty to separate them. No oppression threatening to crush them. No disease to hinder them. No hurt to carry baggage from the past, and no sadness to veil their inexpressible and never-ending joy.

Being home has been a huge adjustment. It feels strange. As the phrase goes, "I feel like a fish out of water." But though I am sad and though I feel like there is a whole in my heart, I take comfort in the fact that what the Lord did through all of us in Africa wasn’t about us. It was about Him, spreading His Word and Love, and serving those He loves dearly. He was just kind and gracious enough to let us be a part of it, and that is why we all feel changed. And while personally, I now feel like I’m living in a place I don’t really belong in, I know that we are all actually living in a place we don’t really belong in.

Revelation 21:1-7 – Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I head a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and He will dwell with them. They will be His people, and God Himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!” Then He said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” He said to me, “It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirst I will give water without cost from the spring of the water of life. Those who are victorious will inherit all this, and I will be their God and they will be my children.”

As homesick as I am for the Betty Jonah Orphanage, I think I'm even more homesick for heaven. 

Yah Jonah

If you’ve been reading my blog, you might remember my post, “they call me Bekah Jonah.” Well, shortly after I posted that, I earned a new name:

“Yah”

I’m called “Yah Jonah.”

I thought being called Bekah Jonah was special, but words can’t describe my delight for Ma and Pa to dub me their “Yah.” It means second daughter and from what I gather, it holds very strong ties with the African culture. It’s not a name you just give out or throw around. Though you might have many “sons and daughters” (it’s very common for Liberians to take others into their home and then refer to them as their own), you only have one Kou, one Yah, one Yei, etc. The moment Ma first called me her “Yah” in a women’s meeting she brought me to one Saturday, every woman in the room stood up and rushed to hug me – though every one in the room had greeted me previously already. From that point on, I knew if I wanted to make others happy, I just had to tell them I was “Yah Jonah!” This name was met with even more delight when I wore one of the African dresses Ma bought me. She would dress me up and proudly show me off to the other Mas in the church. By the end of my time there, it had become natural for me to respond to “Yah.” Ma and Pa completely stopped calling me Bekah altogether – only Yah.

I guess my words fail to try and explain the importance of this name to me. I wish I could communicate it in terms for others to better understand. I wish you could see the kind of smile it put on my face. I wish I could explain the joy it put in my heart. I wish I could explain, but I can't. I don’t know what I did for Ma and Pa to deserve such an incredible honor or such a genuine acceptance into their home. And while I don't know the answer to that, I do know that I am so blessed beyond measure. This name is something I will carry with me as a sign of how much I am cared for at this little orphanage and a reminder of how blessed my time was there. 

Ma, Yah, and Pa Jonah

A Day at the BJO

I want to share with you all what a typical day looked like for me over the past few weeks.

Almost everyday since June 25, I have woken up tired, brushed my teeth without running water, taken a cold shower, and dressed myself in smelly clothes. I packed my backpack daily with some balloons, bubbles, crayons, paper, and a multitude of brightly colored lollipops. On my way out the door I would grab a roll for breakfast, say goodbye to Martha (the woman who cleans the houses at ABC who also happens to be the sweetest, most joyful person I know), and hoped on the back of Remington’s motorbike to set out for the orphanage. As Remington drives and I take in the African wind in my face, I close my eyes and pray. It almost always started out as “God please don’t let us crash!”… our back tire spun out on the muddy dirt too many times for me to take this prayer for granted! Somewhere along the way, Tim and Shane race past Remington and I pretending everyday that it’s a race they must win. Once we reach the checkpoint between Yekepa and Camp 4, we eagerly wave to the police who wave back with even more enthusiasm. A few minutes and large potholes later, we arrive at the Mother Betty Jonah orphanage.

As I gracefully fall off Remington’s motorbike, I’m greeted by hugs, handshakes, and more “good morning Sis Bekahs!” than I can ever count. The kids are usually wearing the same clothes than we saw them in yesterday, but are never ashamed. Only moments later come Ma and Pa with glittering eyes and sincere smiles. They know exactly how to make a person feel valued, loved, and wanted. We exchange a quick “Ba-voo-oh… Como-e-pee-ay?” and “Im-pee-ay-la-say”.  Usually two of the youngest girls, Pauline and Edigae, will then grab my hands and accompany me on my rounds through the orphanage, kitchen, clinic, and school building to say our “ba-voo-ohs.”

Some mornings I wonder to the Randy Godfrey Elementary and Middle School that is attached to Redeemer Baptist Church. Here, was able to help for about a week helping the schoolteachers to fill out (by hand) the end of the year report cards. Though I am the youngest in the room, I was always given the best seat as we all crowded around the child-size table. And though I messed up the reports cards time and time again, no one ever showed signs of annoyance or frustration. As the 12 teachers passed around one calculator and shared red and blue pens for grading, each teacher poured themselves over their work – though at least one person in the room was always sharing some kind of joke or story. Though some of the teachers are not “properly qualified,” and one even have 78 small children in her classroom, I was blown away by each teacher’s love and passion to teach. Their true desire is to pass what they know on to the children in Camp 4 in the hopes of bettering the lives of the kids. I wish I had a solution for problems like no textbooks, not enough copybooks or pens, and a lack of teachers (and pay) for the subjects needing to be taught – among many other needs the school has. Please join me in praying for the school, that God would bless it and provide for each of the needs they have. This school is working very hard to offer hope and a better life for people who have next to nothing. Take a walk through their community and you will immediately see the pressing need for better education! It is one of the biggest hopes for them to break the cycle of poverty!

After a few hours at the school it was usually time for lunch. Tim, Shane, and I definitely ate like royalty while we were there! Though the people here usually just eat beans and rice everyday, Ma Betty (who is a wonderful cook, even in her old age), insisted on making us all the different kinds of “soup” – potato greens, cassava, pumpkin, okra, peanut, palm, cabbage, beans, or bitter-ball. Our soup always had either fish, chicken, pig, or goat in it… skin, bones, and all… and we usually had bananas or the world’s greatest pineapple. Lunch was always relaxing and a good time to catch up with Shane and Tim and whatever projects they were working on for the day.

If it was a Monday, Wednesday, or a Friday, I spent the next hour and a half in Bible study with some of the sweetest, most joyful and incredible girls you can ever imagine meeting. We played games – their favorite was hot potato – sang songs, prayed, and studied topics such as joy in suffering, being fearfully and wonderfully made, Psalm 23, the importance of sharing our testimonies, living vertically, and others. It’s kind of funny how the Lord had me pick topics I struggle with in order to teach others because not only was I learning from preparing, but I also learned so much from the things the girls had to add to the discussions. The maturity of these girls is unreal – but I guess you have to grow up fast when you’ve been through some of the things these girls have had to endure…

Besides these things and helping Shane and Tim with an occasional project, all of my other time at the orphanage was spent with the kids. Sometimes it meant piling on the older girl’s bunk beds and laughing until we were crying. Sometimes it meant washing clothes or dishes, helping to cook food, or taking walks throughout the community (which was really fun until we started to run into the man who was constantly drunk and would always follow us asking to meet me…). But more often, my time was spent playing games with the kids. Sometimes it was soccer, baseball (what we call kickball), or volleyball (we cleared and built a court! A BIG “thank you” to the DCA volleyball team for donating a net. The kids and community was beyond ecstatic!). Sometimes we would play hot potato (with my speakers blasting classics from N’Sync and Backstreetboys, this is definitely their favorite!) four corners, relay races, steal the bacon, telephone, meow, duck duck goose, hopscotch, museum, or any of the African games they taught me that I don’t know the names of! The kids would also chase balloons and bubbles tirelessly. I definitely wish I would have brought more bubbles. You would think I was throwing money in the air rather than blowing soap bubbles! Funny note about the bubbles – the kids don’t stop running until ALL the bubbles are “busted.” So if we are on the soccer field and it is windy, they can be running for yards and yards – sometimes into the bushes – just to chase the bubbles down! Other times it means picking up rocks and hurling them into the air until one lucky boy or girl hits and pops it. This is sure to be following with roaring cheers of delight and a stampede of little feet running back for more.

I loved playing the games with the kids, especially when the kids from the community would join us. It was a great time to spend with all the kids and was guaranteed to bring smiles and laughter. However, the biggest challenge or me was trying to facilitate games in the midst of a culture that uses raised voices, harsh words, and their fists/feet to solve problems. In Liberia, especially at the orphanage where kids don’t have parents looking out for them, all the kids learn very early to fend for themselves. They have learned that to survive they have to protect themselves and their own. During games, when disagreements occurred, there was almost always a giant mob of screaming kids pointing and yelling at one another and there was bound to be at least of a few kids “beating” one another. It broke my heart to see kids treat each other this way, but to them it’s what they have to do to survive. There is only so many times you can stop games and threaten to send kids home for fighting when they have been raised to think it’s okay… But praise the Lord towards the end of my time there I at least had some kind of order and there were far less fights. I’m sad to say I don’t expect that to carry over too much now that I’m gone…

Finally, sometime around 5 or 6, we would head back to ABC for the evening. Sometimes it would just be spent relaxing and doing things that needed to be done for the following day, but other times we might go to on a walk/exploration, to a someone’s house, or have some of our friends over for dinner (I got pretty good at cooking spaghetti and the local store knows we really like eggs! Yekepa has been officially introduced to scrambled eggs, courtesy of Chef Tim). All before the power goes off around 9 or 10 and we head for bed and another night's rest. 

So if I had to describe my time here in a few words (because even though I’ve already used many and of course I could never pick just one) I would say: exhausting but fulfilling, stretching yet refining, hard but perfect, simple yet enthralling, and giving always receive back even more.

Some of the kids at the BJO

Edigae

California!

Teaching me to "beat the drum" - a failed attempt. 

Pauline

On the last day of Bible Study

Camp!

Last Saturday morning at 6 a.m., Shane and I left from the orphanage with 13 kids to go down to Monrovia for five days for Ignite Liberia’s first youth camp! And what a crazy, busy, exhausting, fun, blessed, and mosquito-filled these past few days have been!

About 2 weeks ago, some of the older boys and girls from the orphanage approached us about wanting to go to a camp in Monrovia that Emmanuel was putting together. We got permission from Ma and Pa, but the problem was the cost: the registration alone was about 750 Liberia dollars – a huge amount for the people here, much less for kids at an orphanage

For those of you unfamiliar with the exchange rate in Liberia, that equals $10 a kid total for a 5-day camp… room, meals, the whole shebang.

Tim, Shane, and I decided that we wanted to help the kids get to camp, but asked them to show initiative and prove they were willing to work to get there (not just going because the Americans agreed to pay for them) by finding ways to raise some money for themselves. Between the 13 of them, they raised a little over 2,000 Liberian dollars in the next few days! So we agreed to help pay for the rest of their registration fees as well as help find transportation to and from Monrovia. God also opened the door for Shane and I to be camp counselors! We would be sleeping with the kids in their dorms and helping in any other areas that we could. (Tim was invited to come as well, but we all three decided that he should stay in Yekepa to complete some projects as well as visit Remington’s village)

We were able to get a hold of a van from ABC to use to transport the kids to and from Monrovia. However, the week leading up to camp it was still in the process of being fixed. This wasn’t a problem until we learned that it was still in Ghanta (about 2 hours from Yekepa) getting fixed the day before we were supposed to leave! So I sent out a massive prayer plea to many of my friends and God must have heard the prayers cause at 11 p.m. on Friday night, the van rolled back onto campus! Praise the Lord because our plan B was pretty much non-existent!

So Shane and I, ABC’s driver (Jonathan), and 13 kids piled into the 14-seater van at 6 in the morning on Saturday and started off! We arrived in Monrovia 8 hours later with only one flat tire, 4 battery fixes, a shampoo explosion, and the door coming almost completely off the car! This is Africa. But all in all I would say it was a pretty successful trip. All of us spent the night at Emmanuel’s house that night (5 boys in one queen size bed bed, 8 girls in another) and eagerly awaited the first day of camp the next afternoon.

Sunday morning came along and about 10 minutes before I was supposed to go teach Sunday school at Emmanuel’s church I suddenly got very sick. Apparently I had accidentally drunk some well water the day before that didn’t agree with me at all. I honestly can’t remember the last time I have felt that sick. But praise God for Shane because he stepped up and volunteered to teach Sunday school last minute while I stayed back and rested. I definitely think that God wanted to use Shane that morning to speak to the kids instead of me. So as I rested I prayed that this sickness wouldn’t keep me from being at camp with the kids. God definitely came through because right as everyone came back from church a few hours later and we were loading up the van again God healed me almost as fast as the sickness came over me! God is good! And I just want to say that being sick in Africa really made me appreciate the luxury of being sick in my own home…

So here is the gist of the camp.

There were 42 kids total at the camp, which was pretty cool because it was Ignite Liberia’s first camp. Ignite’s mission is to equip Liberia’s youth for evangelizing to the nation. So the whole theme of the camp centered around evangelism. Even the topics that weren’t necessarily about evangelism (peer pressure, relationships, teen pregnancy, etc) had a focus on how to live in a way that sets ourselves apart from others and can open doors for evangelism.

Besides having relevant, interactive teaching, the camp offered 3 meals a day – something almost none one in the country gets. In addition, of the campers were split into four different groups, Manchester United, Barcelona, Arsenal, and Chelsea, and participated in games, activities, discussions, and Bible quizzes within their groups all week (I regret to inform everyone that my team, Barcelona, came in last place… but I assured our them that the last shall indeed be first haha).

At first, to be completely honest, I was very uncomfortable with the living situation. All of the girls stayed in one big room with about 15 bunk beds in it – most of which were broken and unusable. There were only 3 mosquito nets total (which the girls made me sleep under one – bless their heart’s), and I think I saw two mice by my bed within my first five minutes there. There was only one light bulb in the middle of the whole room (which only worked when the generator was on). There was also no windows or screens in the room – only special bricks that are made with wholes in them to allow a little bit of light through during the day. The bathroom had two toilets, which didn’t flush, and one giant bath area. I caught myself starting to wish I was back at ABC, but was reminded that the trip is not about my comfort. Looking back, though I was literally eaten alive by mosquitoes (I told all the kids that the mosquitoes like “white woman blood”, to which they all roared in laughter) and despite feeling the dirtiest I have ever felt, and though I was put in some of the most honestly awkward situations I have ever been in, living in this dorm with the girls turned out to be one of my favorite parts of the trip. It was fun to be their “mom” for a few days, waking them up, shushing their laughter in the middle of the night, walking around spraying their blankets with mosquito spray, making sure the room was kept clean, praying with those who were sick, encouraging daily devotions, and staying up late into the night talking and laughing. And even though I am grateful to be back in Yekepa and at ABC now (mostly because I don’t feel like a walking mosquito meal anymore), staying with the girls and living in a situation which, to them, was completely normal gave me a little better taste of what it looks like to get down and dirty and really invest into people in their every day lives. And while it is a huge blessing to be able to come back to ABC every day and rest after a long day of working, I am hoping that next time, Lord willing, I can learn the art of being even less comfortable a little better.

Now to be honest, as much fun as this camp was, it was also a huge challenge for me personally. I don’t want to go into details, but there were a few times when I was angry and frustrated and the Lord good enough to humble me. There was also a few times where I was discouraged and in tears and the Lord was faithful to encourage and lift me back up. But despite the frustration and tears, and even though sometimes I found myself wishing I had stayed back at the orphanage with the younger kids, there were a few things that made this whole trip really worth it for me.

The first was more of a compilation of the gratefulness the orphan kids expressed to us and to God for making it possible for them to be at camp. I know that many of them walked away with a better understanding of God and refined tools of how to share the Gospel more effectively. Many of them made new friends. And many of them got to spend a few days away from the orphanage – something a few of them haven’t had a chance to do in years.

The second was the look on the kids’ faces when we took them to the ocean. 9 of them had never been to Monrovia and even more than that had never seen the ocean before. Wide-eyed and in awe, they stared with smiles and screams of delight. I couldn’t believe their reaction when they got too close to a breaking wave as they ran away screaming as fast as they could. We even had to tell one of the boys not to drink the ocean water! Eventually a few of them got the courage to sit down and let the waves soak them. I don’t think a single one of them stopped smiling the whole time they were there! As we left, one of the boys, Alvin, came up to me and said a sincere, “Sis Bekah, thank you. Now I can go back to Yekepa and tell my friends that I have seen Monrovia and the ocean.” The look on their faces and the happiness that filled them for the short 30 minutes we were there is something I will never forget and something I am so incredibly grateful to be a part of. God could have used anyone to take these kids to the ocean for a little while, but for some reason, He chose Shane and I to partake in that blessing… and for that, I am so incredibly grateful.

The last was the few things that the Lord taught me throughout the week... The first is that God doesn’t always work with smoke screens, flashing lights, or a giant speaker. Often He works without us even knowing it. As humans, this can be frustrating because we judge success based on results, data, statistics, etc. But during the week, I reflected a little on the story of Job. I was reminded how he had no idea of what was going on in heaven when the Lord suggested Job to undergo Satan’s tests. Job wasn’t there. He didn’t know that the Lord and Satan were discussing his faithfulness to God. And though all Job was seeing trials and hardships, I imagine that God was sitting in His heavenly home, proud of Job for not cursing Him as Job’s wife and friends suggested. I guess my point is that we don’t know what’s going on in the heavenly realm. And we shouldn’t have to see results, miracles, or anything else in order for us to be faithful to the Lord. On this earth, we might never see the full harvest for the work we have done. But we are still called to plant seeds. God’s plans are being carried out, with or without us and I would rather be apart of that without partaking in the harvest than arriving in heaven and shamefully telling Him I did nothing for His name. 

There are still a few things that God has been continuing to teach me but I am again racing the generator, so hopefully I can update soon.

I'm also sad to report that tomorrow is our last full day in Yekepa. I've ignored that this day is coming for too long and I still can't believe it's here... Needless to say, tomorrow will be a very sad day.

A village called Bonlah

I'd like to start out by saying I'm sorry for all the typos and run-on sentances! I'm racing the generator right now as it's about to go off any minute, so I will fix it later... could be as long as a week since we're taking the orphan kids to camp tomorrow in Monrovia! Don't know what the camp will be like but I will update soon if I can! Please pray for travel mercies and for everyone involved with the camp that God would move and speak!

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Tim, Shane, and I had another exciting adventure yesterday! There is a village about an hour “into the bush” from ABC called “Bonlah.” This village is nestled right up into the mountains and has quite a lot of farmland. However, because it is so far away from any local market, they don’t have a real need for as much of the land that they own. Because of this, Bonlah has agreed to donate 500 acres of farmland to ABC!

For ABC, this is a miracle that this non-Christian village would donate land to a Christian university that for centuries has been set aside for their own religious practices. In addition, by planting Rubber Trees and Palm Trees (no, they don’t have dates here!), in 6 years this will allow ABC to be almost completely self sufficient! Dr. Amos, the president of ABC, was sharing with us his heart and dream for his school and the village throughout this process. He is excited to expand his school to Bonlah and is planning on creating an agriculture department there so that before every student graduates he/she can spend time there and learn skills like farming. He is also excited for his students to get to see first hand a village with absolutely no way to get power, internet, running water, etc. and experience for themselves, “the real Africa.” He believes this will give them a better appreciation for the conditions in which they live in at ABC (limited power, usually running water, etc). Now honestly, I laughed a bit to myself that the Dr. Amos is trying to expose his students to a world that is less fortunate than themselves when I look around Africa and think everyone he is the poorest of the poor. It’s just a reminder no matter how little we think we have, there is always someone with less.

Bonlah is also making a very good deal by giving their land to ABC. As I said before, they don’t have a use for the farmland because their village is too far away from any large markets to sell their produce to other villages (and if they hadn’t given it to ABC, Dr. Amos told us the Chinese in the area would have just come and taken it). So ABC has agreed to employ the villagers to clear and farm the land, creating jobs this village otherwise doesn’t have. Additionally, he has promised to help improve their roads (which, by the way, make the road from Monrovia to Yekepa look like a highway in America… hard to believe… again, as Dr. Amos kept saying, “this is the real Africa”), making it easier for people to go to and from Bonlah. This will also allow the village to take more of their produce from their remaining land to other markets. Dr. Amos and ABC has also told the village they want to help improve the village’s education system. Bonlah has an elementary school, but if the children want to pursue education past the 6^th grade, they must leave their village entirely and go live somewhere else. This creates a very high dropout rate, but the villagers also told us that it makes it very hard to keep the educated amongst them because once kids leave and experience the “outside world,” they don’t want to come back to their own town.

If all this wasn’t enough, Bonlah, like I said, is not a Christian village, but Dr. Amos has high hopes that they will be able to minister to this village and their chiefs. He has very strong hopes that if the chief of the village becomes a Christian that the rest of his village will follow. How amazing that God is working here to meet needs for Bonlah and ABC as well as allowing opportunities for people to hear, share, and learn about Him! I know that the students at ABC will be shining lights to these people as they invest long-term into this village!

Well so anyway, the 3 of us, Dr. Amos, our driver, and Remington all traveled to Bonlah and two other small villages along the way. It was a VERY bumpy, slow ride on a path through the forest. About the only next step down would have been us weaving in and out of trees to get there! In our land rover, we rode through streams and rivers, over boulders, through muddy ditches, and over bridges made of a couple logs or some plywood… every bridge we passed over was finished with a sigh of relief from me and a carful of laughter from the Africans… they do this kind of stuff often I’m learning. I definitely felt like I was playing the part from a scene of Jurassic Park though. The only thing we were missing was the T-Rex!

Once we arrived at the village, we sat down with all the elders and the chiefs as they welcomed us. We expressed our “thanks” for welcoming us so warmly and then we set off through the jungle to see the farmland they gifted to ABC. Now, when I think of farmland, I picture relatively flat valley ground with a few overgrown bushes here and there. Not a thick, bushy forest. But they were all very excited about showing it to us so I just smiled real big and nodded my head in excitement. However, all I could think about was “I’m sure glad I’m not the one clearing this land” haha.

After about thirty hot, humid, and sweaty minutes of walking around and seeing the farmland, they took us through the rest of their village. This was definitely the coolest looking village I had been in. It’s right smack in the middle of the mountains and is absolutely beautiful. All the houses and huts are very close together, giving it a very strong “community feel” to it. We walked a little ways to the river where they wash and get their water from. There, we got a chance to walk over the “Monkey Bridge” as they call it (I’m sure there is a story behind that name, but I didn’t ask). This massive bridge reminded me of the Swiss Family Robinson or the Tarzan Bridge at Disneyland. It was mad completely out of bamboo and vines! I jumped up and down in the middle to shake it a bit and realized that probably wasn’t the best idea…

At this point, I had 3 or 4 kids from the village that were following me around, so I pulled outa bottle of Bubbles from my backpack. At first the kids just stared at me in bewilderment. I realized they had never seen bubbles before. So I started to chase and burst my own bubbles to show them. Somehow, in about 3 minutes, I had the whole village’s population of children swarming around me trying to pop bubbles. I can only imagine what they thought of this “white woman with the magic pipe that blows clear, flying balls.” None of the kids spoke English, so it was really entertaining hearing them all scream, laugh, and chatter in their own language. It was a weird feeling thinking about how none of those kids knew Jesus. I was wondering if they had ever even heard His name… And without being able to talk to these kids all I could do was pray that through my simple gestures they would somehow be able to see Christ.

Another heart breaking thing that happened while we were there… Almost as soon as we arrived, Shane had a little boy practically attached to his hip. This boy, named Joseph, was probably 7 years old. Once Shane held his hand, carried him around on his shoulders, and let him wear his hat and sunglasses, this kid never left Shane’s side. As we were leaving the village, Joseph’s parents approached Shane and were very excited that Shane would be “taking their son and offering him a better life.” Taken back, Shane had to explain to them that taking their son wasn’t his intentions, and while he would love to offer Joseph a better life, he simply couldn’t separate him from his family.

When this first happened, I honestly wasn’t too shocked. Many of the kids at the orphanage have parents, but their parents gave them up so they could have shelter, food, and education. Wanting a better life for your children isn’t all the bad right? But what kind of place is this where parents freely offer their own children to complete strangers? It’s no wonder we hear of so many horror stories about child trafficking where strangers come, promising hope and a better life, only to shamelessly exploit innocent children… My heart breaks for this world where parents feel like the best choice they have for their kids is to give them away, no questions asked. I keep wondering what us Christians are doing to try and help. I guess a better question the Lord keeps asking me is, “what are you going to do about it?” Honestly, it’s moments like this that I struggle with anger and resentment. I try to rationalize what is going on by pointing fingers at others around me who I don’t think are active in speaking out and seeking justice for the oppressed. But ultimately I know that one day when I stand before God, I will not be held accountable for the acts of others, only my own. And after seeing what I have seen, and knowing what I know, I don’t have any excuse to sit and do nothing…

God, help me to never sit back and do nothing. 

"And what does the Lord require of you?

To act justly and to love mercy
    and to walk humbly with your God."

Micah 6:8

"The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me,
    because the Lord has anointed me
    to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
    to proclaim freedom for the captives
    and release from darkness for the prisoners,
2 to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor
    and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
3     and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
    instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
    instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
    instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
    a planting of the Lord
    for the display of his splendor."

Isaiah 61:1-3

The village chief at New Yekepa

Got stuck in the river. NBD. 

Bonlah!

Nice Farmland... right?!

A few of my new friends